ni keje ctzurairah, ucuk follow...

rules :)

1.            You must post this rule

2.            Each person must post 11 themselves in their journal

3.            Answer the question the tagger set for you in their post and create eleven new questions for the   people you tagged to answer

4.            You have to choose eleven people to tagged and link them to the post

5.            Go to their page and tell them you have tagged HIM/HER

6.            No tag Back !

7.            No stuff in the tagging section about "YOU ARE TAG IF YOU READING THIS" YOU LEGIMATELLY (a.k.a REALLY,TRUST,WITH ALL HONEST)have tagged 11 people.

11 facts about myself :)

1.       Mulut super longkang…sangat2 laser

2.       Even though I look tough, actually I really like to cry.

3.       When I have problems, any kind. I eat for comfort

4.       I hate to lose against man

5.       Pendendam tahap mahadewa, I can forgive but I never forget.

6.       Walaupun ucuk suka bercakap, ucuk lebih suka memerhati. I love learning body language.

7.       I don’t like to talk about my family

8.       I never think that I am a good person

9.       Senang bercouple

10.   Dreamt about having a husband before the age of 20 and having a baby by 21(ucuk suka berangan:P)

11.    Tabiat buruk is sedawa sembrono

soalan soalan CTZURAIRAH:)

1.            Kalau terjumpa jejaka / perempuan pujaan, ape yang korang akan buat ??

-       Tenung lelama sampai putus urat mata

2.            kaLau putus dengan kekasih, tetap akan jadi kawan atau buang je jauh2 ??

-       op coz la member lagi, kebanyakkan nya camtu,sometimes boleh pau.

3.            bagi 5 perkataan meLambangkan diri korang..

-       SENGAL maybe

4.            handphone ape yang korang pakai sekarang ?? *nyatakan semua*

-       nokia x2

5.            gadget ape yang korang idam2kan sampai tak boLeh nak tido maLam ??

-       lappy sebijik, senang nak update blogJ

6.            termasuk yang sekarang nie, dah berapa kaLi korang bercinta ??

-       20 or more maybe, but im not a hooker

7.            warna faveret korang ??

-       orange op coz

8.            korang masih bujang, dah kahwin atau bujang semuLa ??

-       undefined

9.            perkara paLing PELIK jadi daLam hidup korang ??

-       there once a time when a black african man, approach me and wanted my phone number…ewwwwww!! Takut!! Im not racists, don’t judge me

10.          benda yang paLing korang sayang ??

-      = ='

11.          kaLau CTZURAIRAH ada depan mata, ape benda korang nak cakap kat CTZURAIRAH ?? 

-       PENDING tol r!!!

And so, this is my question to you:)

1.    Korang penah tak kentut kat public??

2.    What is your favorite fairytale story??

3.    Have you ever kissed before??

4.    Pernah ada kekasih?? If ada pernah ta curang??

5.    Have you ever go on a blind date?

6.    Selalu berangan pasal apa?

7.    What do you do if your parents are getting a divorce?

8.    Pet idaman korang?

9.    What is the thing that you cant live without???

10.  Percaya ta pada sihir and ilmu hitam??

11.  Kalau ucuk ada depan mata, apa korang buat???

nak tag you all pulak >> madey, laila, roy, jaja, aishah aishi, akid, anis, ciko, didy, hanz, nebek...buat ye:)

100 trUths

found this self survey at my friend blog, macam best. if nak copy silakan:)

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage= sunquick laici..yum2J
2. Last phone call= jezJ
3. Last text message= jez..hihihi
4. Last song you listened to= perfect 2 kot??


HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice= op c0s laa

7. Been cheated on= yup…many times:D
8. Kissed someone & regretted it= yup..(don’t try this people)
9. Lost someone special= don’t know
10. Been depressed= hahaha~ funny
11. Been drunk and threw up= amit2(jaoh kan laa)

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. Orange!!
13. BlackJ
14. Ta pk lg…sat naaa


THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2011)

15. Made a new friend= yesss!!
16. Fallen out of love= yup, but kene reject..bwahahaha
17. Laughed until you cried= that’s my job
18. Met someone who changed you= yes… I love u besties:D
19. Found out who your true friends were= Yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you= Yes
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list= What??
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life= not all
23. How many kids do you want to have= banyak duit, banyak anakJ

24. Do you have any pets= yes… my kitties
25. Do you want to change your name= Sure. Can I change it into Kimi Nuh??

26. What did you do for your last birthday?= Meratapi kesedihanL

27. What time did you wake up today= 4 something, sahur kan??
28. What were you doing at midnight last night= tengok tv(x-man origin)
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for= DSLR!!

30. Last time you saw your Father= just now, his really angry(bwahhhh!!)
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life= nak kurangkan lemak
32. What are you listening to right now= burung memekak, if merdu tape juga
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom= yup, sabahan..hye TomJ
34. What's getting on your nerves right now= tanak balik kampong laa!!

35. Most visited webpage= Facebook.
36. What's your real name= Farha Nabila Binti Baharun

37. Nicknames= Farha, Nabila, Farhan, Nabil, Bell, Biela, Doremon, Froggy, Hana, Han, Ucuk
38. Relationship Status= single
39. Zodiac sign= Leo
40. Male or female= Female
41. Elementary?= Sekolah Kebangsaan Perempuan Yahya Awal

42. Middle School?= SMK(P) Sultan Ibrahim & SMT Pontian
43. High school/college?= Kolej Matrikulasi Perlis.. Now UM
44. Hair colour= Black
45. Long or short= Middle kot
46. Height= 162cm(I assume)
47. Do you have a crush on someone?= hehehe
48: What do you like about yourself?= Everything except the fact that I’m fat!fat!fat!fat!
49. Piercings= Earlobe
50. Tattoos= Never!
51. Righty or lefty= Righty
51b. Innie or Outie= Both.

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery= None
53. First piercing= Standard 6 maybe(12 years old)
54. First best friend= mase sekolah rendah..Oly Nabila(almost the same name)
55. First sport you joined= Hocky(percaya ta??)
56. First vacation= Haaaaa…..
58. First pair of trainers= Mujur if ingat


NOW:

59. Eating= hahaha~
60. Drinking= puasa la…
61. I'm about to= layan perasaan
62. Listening= kipas pusing2…
63. Waiting= buka puasaJ


YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids?= Of course!
65. Get Married?= Hahaha~

66. Career?= Gabenor Malaysia…Aminn...

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes= Both
68. Hugs or kisses= Both
69. Shorter or taller= Both
70. Older or Younger= Both
71. Romantic or spontaneous= Both? Haha.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms= Both both both. Haha.
73. Sensitive or loud= Both, but not too sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship= Relationship
75. Trouble-maker or hesitant= Both


HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger= Nope
77. Drank hard liquor= haram2, ta tertanggung dosa…
78. Lost glasses/contacts= Selalu
79. Sex on first date= Hahaha~ Masih waras

80. Broken someone's heart= Yes
82. Been arrested= Nope
83. Turned someone down= Yes, I'm sorry.
84. Cried when someone died= Yes. My math teacher
85. Fallen for a friend?= Senyap2 sudah


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself= Yes
87. Miracles= Yes
88. Love at first sight= Yes(MahathirJ)
89. Heaven: Yes
90. Santa Claus: No(orang Islam neyh)
91. Kiss on the first date: Uishhh…ta2
92. Angels: Yes


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time= Dulu2, now sudah taubat(I think)
95. Did you sing today= Yes. Everyday. Haha.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?= Yes sir
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?= Very far
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?= The day that I play Bang Bang Boom on Mahathir sampai dia mintak putus..(is that last year??)
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?= Right now, yes. Because love never seem to last
100. Posting this as 100 truths?= Sure

1 malaySia beb!! shUks~

Actually i hate to write about this entry, but it's got me going. Yelah after what happen yesterday, ucuk dah tak tahan. Please open your eyes wide and make your brain clear okey people???

             After reading the tittle, mesti ada some of you, "OMG!! This girl is into politics". First of all, I'm an Economic student, so Introduction to Politics is compulsory in UM(bummer). This entry is not majority about politics, so don't worry to those people who always put kat FB mereka "I'm not into politics or tak minat".

             A case after another, read the papers people. Kami nak kan hak seperti orang melayu?? Paderi menolong orang miskin islam?? Bantuan dari gereja?? Saya murtad kerana desakan hidup?? What's going on with Malaysia?? and now kes kat Penang. good example, sekarang nak jadi macam Singapore(and all of us know Singapore is one of the most country yang kuat Israel, not being judgmental). Dah la amik tag line Singapore yang lama 1Singapore/1Malaysia. can't be more obvious(duhhhh!!). Okey I'm not talking about Singapore, this is Malaysia people. Sangat marah(cool down ucuk).

              I'm not even talking about job application now days, especially in Johor Bahru(this is because i live here, tataw la tempat lain). Sekarang even for part timers, cop! cop! cop! Ni shout out for those who called me lazy and no nothing! Eh!! Siapa nak kerja if everytime you walk into an interview and they give you lousy terms & condition. Some example that I usually gets :

1. ip not where your tudung can onot? can work here but don wear that aaa...

2. not go to pray can? ip not deduct pay, kira mase rehat laaaa

3. know to speak mandarin?? kite amik olang pandai cakap cina.

4. sorry miss, we only applying Chinese girls. 

5. Adik, adik cari kerja kat tempat lain la. sini tokey cina. Pilh kasih laaa..

This is what i have got to go through in each interview, 1-4 is usually reasons that is given by Chinese manager. But number 5, tu yang buat ucuk panas hati beb! Orang melayu tu cakap macam tu! Kerek nak mampus!! At least bagi la borang kerja kosong, lepas ucuk dah isi buang lah. Dah lah kat depan bakery tu tulis sebesar-besar job vacancy, when i ask is there kerja kosong?? kau boleh pula jawab tanya lah kat kedai sebelah, tak pon kedai depan ni dik. Berasap kepala otak aQ ney der!! Ikut kan hati memang nak terajang kau laju-laju. Nak apply for kerja yang kaitan dengan account pun susah, if bukan pasal know Mandarin, of course lah for Chinese only, ta pon 2 years of experience(alassan ini diterima). Buat bazir je sijil LCCI ucuk tu, baik buat bungkus belacan, ta pon sampul nasi lemak.

             Now, let's talk about yesterday yang membuat ucuk tetiba panas hati. My sister baru-baru ni dapat job under Singapore company yang BERTAPAK DI MALAYSIA!! Her job is to sell credits cads to Singaporean, sound easy?? Think again, kenapa bila melibat kan business, accounts or economy orang mesti cakap easy courses(out of the topic). And yesterday, the INDIAN manager told the employees yang selagi you all ta dapat 3 sale, selagi tu jangan mimpi nak balik. Seriously, everyday my sister have to get her butt out of the office 6 p.m. and its Ramadhan. Hello?? 6 p.m?? Bazaar?? Jammed?? Can't you think or your brains dosen't work?? Have a heart, bukan senang ta makan pape from dawn till sun break(istighfar sebentar, ta baik mengeluh). At least respect la other religion, ingat senang ke nak buat sale, kalau orang tanak takan nak paksa...."please buy my credit cards sir, fikir la!!"(be professional ucuk, relax). A job still a job, but be considerate.

             So. who's to blame here?? In my diction everybody is to blame. I'm not being races-ism or religion-ism, but common from the smallest thing and now to the biggest thing. After that orang melayu pula yang jadi pendatang??  common orang Melayu, thats why Dr. Mahathir pernah cakap Melayu mudah lupa(by the way Dr. Mahathir is not a Malay) and some people label that Melayu takan maju(and it's true). Melayu suka cerita kedai kopi, much talking no working(including me, I THINK!!, surely i love coffee). Ni lah 1 Malaysia kan?? Other race are fighting for their own race, and Malays?? Kita sibuk jatuhkan sesama sendiri, bomoh la, jin la, khalwat la, jaga tepi kain orang la. There are many things to think about rather than something stupid.

this song is my sorry

Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me

Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby 

banDar VS felDa

hye you all???so, what's new? da tengok cerita Harry Potter yang baru ta?? Totally a bummer:(

             Entry kali ni, ucuk nak story about program yang ucuk join. Program yang melibatkan seminggu ucuk kat Felda Tenggaroh,Mersing. So, this program di anjurkan oleh PERSADA (Permuafakatan siswa/i FELDA). Dia lebih kurang macam program family angkat, but it's not. Dekat sana ucuk kena pergi banci family-family felda yang ada, eventually if family tu ada 4 generasi, kita kena amik keempat-empat generasi. Complicated?? Ok, let me outline kan for you all.

buat-buat nampak jelah:P

              Hari first ucuk bermula dengan solat Subuh (Alhamdulillah). Pukul 8.30, ucuk dengan member (satu family angkat) kena pergi dewan. At that time, ayah angkat ucuk tade kereta, anak sulung dia yang guna. But he had 2 motorcycle. So, pepagi buta uh. Dengan pakai baju kurung, ucuk dah merempit atas motor (beku betis wa cakap sama lu). After perasmian semua, ucuk and member lagi seorang ni head back to rumah angkat la. That evening, kitaorang start lah banci. Ingatkan kerja banci ni senang, rupanya susah!! dalam keadaan panas terik, hausnya lagi, layan kerenah orang-orang yang nak di banci, dengan jauh nya. haila~
time tu, segala dose yang penah buat kat tukang banci yang duk datang rumah ucuk nak buat banci semua berputar dalam kepala otak.

                Tak habis dengan tu, petang tu ada lah pulak j-robik@johorRobik. OH MY GOD, i thought time sekolah je kena buat, sekali dah tua bangka kena buat lagi (disaster gila). It's dosent end there, balik kena pulak dengan ibu angkat. Dia baik, believe me she' sweet. But, for me jadi budak bandar and masuk dalam program FELDA is a very no-no to her. Ucuk faham she's trying hard to be nice and i know when she knew that ucuk dari bandar she became insecure,  This program is held actually to help a pilot project thats gonna be held there (pilot project its not an airport ok??pilot project is like a test drive. nak tengok if sesuatu projek tu sesuai untuk sesuatu kawasan)

                 There are sometimes yang ibu angkat ucuk damn ucuk (sangat down). For some reasons she love me, but sometimes she is not giving in. Penah kena hentam, 'rumah awak pakai orang gaji ea???' and 'biasa lah orang bandar, tak penah nampak kawasan kampung'. (macam kena tumbukan laju-laju). For your information, ucuk di besarkan di rural by my tok mak (atok sedara), and kampung ucuk di terengganu. Yang rumah dibuat dari kayu, jalan batu, ada sungai, yang hutan tebal-tebal tau!!  And ucuk pandai aw pakai kain batik...grrrr~

                 So, what the hack. Ucuk survive without entertainment (internet) for a week (nyawa-nyawa ikan juga kekadang, especially if terperap dalam umah). 

some photos i like to share:)

with my siblings<3

first night, muke da cm cipan

jawtan kuasa

at tanjung balau:)

my other siblings

my first family angkat

ucuk fav:D

yum2:P

last day jatuh kat depan umah..

bengkak woooo:(

my sibling,also bedmate. chantek kn??

after solat hajat..yum3:)

my second family angkat:)

cofesSion

how can i sleep when all i can dream about is you???
how can i rest when all the time i'm crying for you???

how can i forget when i never really did move on??
how can i love someone else when my heart still beating for you???

d0es curE takeS tymE?

if curing takes time...

should it be this long????:(

ends an0ther love story

Wassup to you all.

           Alamak, kalau dah baca entry mesti da faham. What??? ucuk...sekali lagi??? hahaha~
ya, sekali lagi. Tapi kali ni, ucuk betul-betul terkesan dengan apa yang telah berlaku. 'Hidup tak seindah di bayangkan', apa yang berlaku telah banyak mengajar ucuk. And ucuk harap apa yang telah berlaku pon telah mengajar dia.

           Maybe, ramai yang akan fikir. 'OMG!! Chill sudah.' tapi entah lah, hati ini tetap sayu, sedih. 'Mungkin ALLAH dah tetap kan yang lebih baik', camne if dia memang tebaik buat ucuk?? Tapi masa tak dapat di undurkan, andai kata kesilapan dapat di betulkan, kemafaan dapat di pinta and kesabaran dapat di panjangkan. Yes, i know. Orang yang kenal ucuk mesti dah 'Tak lama lagi ada je yang baru' <with rolling eyes>. Berani r! aQ tumbok law aQ tahu!

          Even dah nak masuk sebulan pekara ni berlalu, tiap-tiap malam juga ucuk nangis. Thanx to all besties yang support ucuk cam nak rak, yang ta sanggup tengok ucuk menangis <or da meluat tengok aQ>. Ucuk bersyukur sangat-sangat.

           And Alhamdulillah, selepas bersemuka dengan dia <after nak masuk sebulan kami berpisah>. Ucuk explain semua dengan hati yang tebuka, and ucuk harap dia nampak keikhlasan ucuk. Ucuk mintak kami berpisah cara baik, and dia pon merelakan. Ucuk ingat ucuk akan nangis <padahal mata dah bergenang pon>, tapi bertahan. Akhirnya, ucuk rasa lebih lega. Bila fikir balik, maybe sebab masa dia muncul dalam hidup ucuk, ucuk ikhlas terima dia...Jadi bila dia pergi pon ucuk redha...

            To all yang duk mengurat ucuk meh la masuk line...wakakaka~ <perasan sungguh kamu ni>

kerana lomo & polaroid

hye, wassup you all?? hope semua okie dokie.

           The story begins bila ucuk and friends nak pergi ke sebuah kedai at petaling jaya (pJ) yang khas menjual kamera species lomo and polaroid <cute3>. kedai uh name The Click Shop, harga kamera kat situ cam lebih low lah dari harga pasaran. So, sebelum nak ke sana. Kawan ucuk, ctzurairah pon pergi lah google map kan tempat nye. Memang excited tahap gaban wa ckp sama lu:D.

            Memandangkan ucuk and friends nak jimat kan kos ke sana, kami telah memilih untuk berjalan keluar UM. Sebagai makhluk excited <actually jakun>, camne ntah masa nampak bas ucuk and friends <tanak sebut nama sekian 2 sebenarnya> pon selamber denek main naik. dah la selamber naik, turun pon main selamber. Nak di jadikan cerita, kami pon jalan la menonong mengikut direction budak yang dah google map tadi tu. Camne ntah kotaorang leh masuk kawasan kilang-kilang, ucuk pon ta paham. memang lawak gila, dah la asik kena sweet...haila~ <tapi lam aty budget hot:P>

             dah nak dekat berkilo-kilo milimeter jalan baru lah kami sedar yang kami sesat, Apa sesat lam bandar? Ye!! This is the trurth... wakakaka~
rupa nya si sekian ta berapa nak reti baca map, kami ta salahkan dia:D

            Seperti yang tertera di peta, kami sepatut nya menggunakan route purple, tapi camne ntah dengan menggunakan navigation si sekian kami telah tersesat melalui route merah. Dah la sesat, lapar pula tu. Tapi kami ta marah langsung, kami cuma mampu cakap 'kelakarnya'. Nasib lah phone ucuk ada WIFI, dengan pertolongan orang awam kami pon terpaksa berpatah balik kerana sah-sah ss2/55 bukan kat situ. 

             Memandangkan dah masuk waktu zohor <berejam uh sesat>, ucuk and friends pergi lah ke shopping mall terdekat. Nak makan dulu pastu solat. Kat area situ ada shopping mall sstwo, baru buka kot, masih ada bau bangunan baru. Nak di jadikan keadaan lebih menarik kat situ cuma ada fastfood Old Town White Coffee, sekali buka menu.... Haila~ price semua above Rm6.90 <that's why i never makan kat situ>. Dengan muka kelat pon kami oder, apa haram kejadah ntah ucuk oder. Sampai-sampai je, hadoi la...maggie lagi sodap! tawar hebeh.

              Selesai je melangsaikan hutang kami, we all pon still teruskan pencarian. Akhirnya jumpa juga, punya lah duk bayangkan rumah kedai, sekali rumah yang di jadikan kedai. Even though, sesat berjam-jam, kat kawasan kilang pula tu, dengan perut yang kosong, lepas tu asik kena sweet-sweet and hon dengan van and lori, and then terpaksa makan mee tawar dengan harga rm6.90. Walaweyh!!! Berbaloi beb...jatuh cinta dengan kedai itu:)

kamera lomo yang terdapat di situ:)

polaroid<3

berbagai-bagai saiz and patern:D

spesis kotak rokok

ni lah rumah yang di jadikan kedai, mana sign board^^'

hari bahGie wat baBy aQ:)

            Tanggal 19/06/2011 merupakan hari paling berbahgia buat baby ucuk yang tercinta, si 'upy'. This is because ucuk telah beli kan dia girl-girl. And now my baby da ada buah hati baru, hope 'upy' akan bahgia bersama 'momo'  Jangan gaduh-gaduh, mama ucuk always love her babies.. muaxsS:)

muaxsSs...

first time jumpa da main jeling-jeling

upy & momo love story:)

bila mata bertemu mata:)

an actoR

live is like a theater, life is like a show...

i can put on a thousand acts, and i can put on a thousand masks...

u cant see the real me, cause im too good at what i do...

don't let it happen to y0u

            Ye, semua orang kat dunia ni ada masalah. stress and tension, tu lah yang selalu keluar dari mulut kita-kita bila ada masalah. But seriously, you all tahu tak "stress" to apa?? So, if you all nak tahu boleh klik kat link ni "stress in biological term".

            Why tiba-tiba, ucuk nak berleter pasal pekara ni?? Well as i was saying, semua orang ada masalah. tak kisah lah kecil or besar. Pekara ni bukan main-main, its a big deal. Tak terkecuali diri ucuk sendiri, when ada masalah selalunya ucuk akan simpan <bahaya ni you all>. Dengan harapan esok bila ucuk bangun, 'I will start a fresh', realitinya hidup tak semudah itu.

if you "stress", you need help

             My besties selalu nasihatkan ucuk supaya story-mory dengan diaorang, to me some story are best to tell while others are meant to kept. As they were saying dengan sikap ucuk yang suka mendiamkan masalah, lama-lama masalah tu akan bertimbun <what am i saying? sucks at philosophy>.

              Whatever.. Straight the point, ucuk selalu teserempak dengan artikel "stress",  usually i neglected the artikel. Yeah, because as a human, ucuk tak suka orang tengok ucuk macam budak bermasalah. "stress" and "depression"?? Hello ... people sees me as a happy person, gila-gila gitu, picture perfect family. tapi realiti my life is bezerk <padan muka!!!> Semenjak balik ke jB ucuk mula sakit-sakit, muscle pain, dizziness, tekak sentiase loya, mood swings teruk, dada pon sakit. At first ucuk ingat nak kena serang lelah balik. But with the fact that i have to go through every day like living in hell. Ucuk decides untuk tanya DR.GOOGLE. And yes, im suffering from stress < malu seyh dengan kenyataan ni>

ni result ucuk dari stress level test

               Banyak kali juga ucuk fikir nak buat entry ni ke tak. Malu juga sebenarnya. Tapi, hopefully dengan entry ni and link-link yang ucuk sertakan dapat membantu you all, kalau tak banyak, sikit pon syukur alhamdulillah. Oh, ni link-link yang boleh help if you all ada Q >> .stress management for health, stress cause throw up, what stress do to you body. And this link boleh test stress level you all >> 

undoing stress.

               Last shout out, ucuk nak mintak maaf if ada menyakitkan mana-mana pihak. Ucuk mohon agar semua support ucuk, because 

"I can't do this alone, i'm all out right now"

ada same tak mata kami?

                 

yesSs....sayE saye bUkan budak baik...s0???

             if you all tanya ucuk ney budak baik or hampeh. let me answer your Q...ucuk seorang budak yang sangat EVIL!!! hahaha~

'bukan masa yang mematang kan ucuk, tapi keadaan'

             you want to know about me??? alright. ucuk akan berterus terang dengat telus nya. saya budak jahat + evil + gedix sikit pon ada. but if you want to cakap ucuk ney baik....pujian di terima^^. kenapa ucuk cakap ucuk jahat??? firstly, nak menuanaikan kewajiban pon liat, tak on time<da tua pon ada lobang-lobang> kewajiban dah hampeh, apatah lagi yang sunat...cam harem je lah kan???


              bab tutup aurat pula, asal boleh je kan??? yang kenal ucuk mesti dalam hati 'memang pon'. hobi ucuk is mencapap and menggedix, kekadang suka gedegang <law tak paham guna lah google translate> mulut yang memang laser tahap laser ultraman pon kalah...law mengajeng @ mengalan, memang tu lah kehebatan ucuk. peranan muka lagi satu...yang kenal ucuk je yang paham <memang nak mintak penampar> hahaha~


              ucuk sangat suka prank orang, pantang di cabar. because ucuk akan buat <if releven dengan akal ucuk lah> sangat suka mencuba benda baru selagi tak menyusahkan orang, mama ucuk and diri sendiri. bagi ucuk kena mencuba baru dapat menjiwai. ucuk spesis yang dengan semua orang ucuk boleh kawan, tapi tak semua kawan ucuk percaya and jadikan teman <mintak maap rakan-rakan>

               if you all talks about love life, ni lah paling ucuk lemah. ya saya cepat jatuh cinta, selalunya susah nak setia <wahhaaa...sorry-sorry> TAPI ucuk spesis penyayang lah juga, you have to make me fall in love in every ways <demand gila perempuan ni>. and buat masa sekarang, saya masih belajar untuk setia <sangat susah> pape, sila beri tnjuk ajar:)

               

describEs mE

Im standing on the bridge
Im waiting on the dark
I thought that you'd be here
by now
Ther's nothing but the rain
no foot steps on the ground
Im listening but ther's
no sound

Isn't anyone trying to find me
Won't somebody come take me home

it's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I
Im with you
Im with you

Im looking for a place
Im sarching for a face
Is anybody here
I know

Cause nothing's going right
And everything's a mess
And no one likes to be
alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me
Won't somebody come take me home

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I
Im with you
Im with you

Oh

Why is every thing so confusing?
Maybe Im just out of my mind

Yeah yeah yeah...

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't Know Who You are
But I
Im with you
Im with you
Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't Know Who You are
But I
Im with you
Im with you

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't Know Who You are
But I
Im with you
Im with you

"im with you"

yestErday, t0day & t0morr0w

            life is pathetic, thats what i always said.. is it because i made it pathetic?? or is it really that pathetic?? i am almost 20, but my life still empty. i have been through long journey and learn many things. life is a cruel game, that what i have learn through out my experience.

            bila dengan member-member, i laugh, i played, i do many exiting things. but when im alone, i cried and i started to think, why did i turn up this way? why should it supposed to be me going through all of this? is it fate? or did i choose it to be this way? did i made it difficult? or its god will?

            dah lame ucuk jauh dari ALLAH, is it terlewat untuk ucuk mula semula? i made a lot mistakes in my life, from the mistakes i have learn life is not a fairy tale. and even ucuk mula semula, ta terlewat ke? law nak berubah pon, betol ke ucuk nekad? or stakat suam-suam kuku. sanggup ke ucuk melepaskan semuanya?

achinG, tirEd & sleEpy...

            holla-holla...what's up you all?? for your information, now ucuk dah start buat part time^^
kerja ape? ucuk sekarang kerja hotel, kat area jB. HOTEL SELESA, dulu nama hotel uh grand continental, pastu telah di ambil alih <orang jB paham la ucuk bebel ape>.

             ucuk kerja bahagian banquet, if you all ta tahu banquet tu ape. you all boleh klik kat link ney <Banquet>. first shift ucuk, ucuk kena serve 600 orang. <bukan lah sorang^^', ada waiter lain>. memang hectic, dengan refill, dengan yang mintak ini, mintak itu. nak kena angkat plate kotor lagi <fyi pinggan hotel sangat-sangat berat>. seriously, jangan pandang hina terhadap waiter/waitress. bila you all da rasa <cam ucuk sekarang>, then you all will see, betapa susah and penat.

              first day ucuk kerja da kena herdik, ikut hati nak je bahasa kan >>

  'hello! i'm doing my degree at malaya uni, now is the semester break. i'm not a spoil bitch who just laze at home'

              ucuk nak buat shout out to the people out there >>

"com'on lah, tak perlu nak hina-hina orang yang kerja or even low educate dari kita. even if they are beggars...perlu ke nak kerek??? sampai bila je kita ada kat atas selalu??? 

mama ucuk selalu ingat kan the world is round. kita buat orang, one day, it's not impossible ALLAH will return the 'favour'."

         like ucuk selalu cakap >>

'respect people if you want to be respect!!!'

baju kerja ucuk macam ni, cuma ucuk bertudung^^

semalam ucuk kena setting macam ni untuk seminar jabatan kesihatan johor & am bank

first day ucuk kerja kat hotel, kena serve for 600 people. lebih kurang macam ni la susunan dia.