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            Saying "I love you"

Is not the words I want to hear from you

It's not that I want you

Not to say, but if you only knew how easy

It would be to show me how you feel

More than words

Is all you have to do to make it real

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

'Cause I'd already know

               ucuk sangat sukakan lagu ney. cause it brings many meaning into my life. ucuk percaya yang you all semua mesti penah ada crushes dalam hidup you all. tak pon mesti da pernah ada first love, yang orang cakap <bukan ucuk> susah nak di lupakan. paling busuk pon penah puppy love kan time sekolah2 dulu???

                talking about love, and bohong sangat lah kalau ucuk cakap ucuk tak bercinta <c0z hyper-technically im easy to fall in love>. but, if were talking chemistry... there is this one guy yang ucuk tak kan lupakan. cause he had change my life completely.
                   J is someone yang tak di jemput pon ke dalam hidup ucuk. dia tiba2 je muncul. at first we were bestfriend. one day, ex-boy ucuk call, telling me J was an imposter. after, bergaduh dengan J...he told me the truth, dia memang penipu. but dia pon mengaku yang dia mula suka kat ucuk.

                  <fast forward> at last J and ucuk couple. masa 2 terasa bahagia sangat. its not like any other love. he was the best, even kita orang jauh, dia still boleh bimbing ucuk, menyeru ucuk pakai tudung,tunaikan yang wajib and the most important thing is to be obedient with my parents. tak tahu kenapa bila dengan dia hati ucuk jadi lembut and tak melawan. 

                   tapi jodoh tak berkekalan, kami putus. maybe kerana sikap ucuk yang keras kepala, and dia tak boleh sabar. as time passes and do their work, sekarang ucuk di alam universiti. not one man can take his place. member ucuk pernah tanya, laki mana je yang ucuk akan terima lex dalam hidup ucuk? mulut masin ney boleh jawab J.

                     one day J call ucuk, the chemistry still there, he was there when i need him the most. dia tahu ucuk ada masalah. dia ajak ucuk couple balik, even after i told him my situation now. macam mana ucuk cuba benci dia, i just cant.. before letak phone in the same tone masa kami couple dia pon cakap kat ucuck

"sayang, ingat kata-kata abang, apa-apa jadi jangan sesekali cari alternatif untuk kembali ke jalan gelap...abang tak nak sayang rosak. abang sayang kat ayang. terima kasih kerana membuat pengorbanan terbesar untuk abang, abang tak sangka sayang pakai tudung demi abang"

                 menitik air mata, hati ucuk mula rasa sayu, andai kata J tak tinggal kan ucuk. maybe i wont pick this life, but now its to late. maybe one day ucuk akan berubah menjadi seorang hamba and umat yang baik...insya'allah...